Monday, February 25, 2008

Yet Another Week II

First things first, congratulations to any Tottenham Hotspurs fans out there! It was about time for a new team outside the top 4 to win some silver ware and to show Chelsea that millions don't always equal wins.

In other news I was going through the many giga bytes of music that I have and I ran across some music that I loved listening to some years back and I came to an interesting realisation. The realization is that I was one melancholic morose bastard. Let me give one exhibit. I used to love the song by Counting Crows below.

Long winters, break ups, dank hospitals and hoping that next year will be better. Those are just some of the themes from the song.In fact here are the full lyrics down below;

A long December and theres reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I cant remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven
Now the days go by so fast
And its one more day up in the canyons
And its one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...i wish you would
The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that its all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl
And its one more day up in the canyons
And its one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...i think you should
Drove up to hillside manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And its been a long December and theres reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I cant remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And its one more day up in the canyon
And its one more night in Hollywood
Its been so long since Ive seen the ocean...i guess I should

A deep song but not a happy one by any means. Here is one of their other songs that I used to love, less morose than the other one but it isn't a love fest by any means.

And before any of you think of saying it, I'll say it first;

"No, I wasn't depressed!"

You see depression is a poison that seeps into your soul and once in a while you actually realise it is there and try and fight it as you realise what it is doing to you; slowly eating away at you. That wasn't my situation. I think at that point in life, things weren't so rosy but instead of letting it get me depressed and make my life stop, I just took the situation and made it part of my word view. I'm already introverted so some melancholy added to the mix isn't such a big stretch. And to be honest at that point in time, I didn't think anything was a miss nor did it really interfere with the quality of my life. I think instead of poisoning me, it made me stronger because to be honest, I really don't get depressed about anything but on the other hand I also don't get over joyed about much. I guess the chorus of this track is my new theme song (the rest of the lyrics are rubbish to be honest).

Anyway I'm listening to a whole lot more upbeat music and eclectic variety of music as befits my personality! I've also been listening to alot of deep reggae such as Burning Spear but it makes me get really pensive due to the heavy messages in his songs so no Burning Spear cds in my car Thank you!

It's about that time to keep it moving, so have a nice week people and don't be melancholic!


candybox said...

Is that Courtney Cox in the Crows' video? Anyway very dark music that. I'm in that phase right now in my life - not depression, just dark.

Gay Nairobi Man said...

Woah, That song is depressing.

Mwangi - the Displaced African said...

You are a hop and a skip away from the oh-my-God-my-life-is-over-but-deadly-depression-sounds-so-good
sounds of Coldplay

Majonzi said...

Quite morbid, eh? Anyway, long time!!

Acolyte said...

@ candybox
Not that I know of but you never know with these hollywood folks. As long as you dont let the darkness consume you then you are just fine.
@ gnm
And there is more where that came from!
@ mwangi
For some reason Coldplay never did too much for me.
@ majonzi
Dank dark and if you arent careful, depressing. Yes it has been a minute.

Tamtam said...


You dont get depressed, and yet you don't feel overjoyed about anything either.

I don't know how to interpret how you feel. Is this a happy medium, or is it just as it is????

I think I understand where you are at all the same.