Monday, March 10, 2008

Yet Another Week............

I think I have discovered the root of my malaise. For some reason or other I have found myself listening to the kind of music mentioned in this earlier post, so dank days are here again. No nothing bad has happened in my life. Yes I may have to spend some more time at work so I can't go to the gym so that in turn reminds me how empty my social calendar is but I don't mind my job or my work mates, I'm in good health and I'm not broke. Oh yes, I think the root of my malaise is the fact that I think too much about things, not to the point of obsessing or worrying but thinking too much anyway. Case in point, there are small things people like to do to take their minds off how pathetic their everyday lives are here, such as shopping. That's great go out and shop, enjoy yourself and just heap up more debt on yourself while America is in the middle of a recession so you don't even know if you are going to have your job tomorrow. Or maybe what I could do instead is meet a nice girl, get to know her and even get laid! Wonderful suggestion, were it not for the fact that 1 in 4 women have herpes, so who knows what other wonderful surprises you might come across. Maybe I could go out for a few drinks with the boys instead and try not to have too much fun and end up with a DUI like quite a few Kenyans out here. Don't worry I'm being a tad bit dramatic but quite a few times I do think about things I could do and I either do them or shrug my shoulders. I want to be more like those people who drink and party like there is no tomorrow. You know the kind of people who work for their next paycheck so they can go out and have some fun, instead of being like me who is trying to scrimp and save and plan for what I'm going to do and be several years in the future.

So don't worry The Acolyte isn't balled up in some corner depressed or anything, I'm just having one of those internal self examinations where you make the mistake of examining your life by the standards of the world as opposed to your own and we all know where that leads but the good thing is that unlike many I do manage to come to my senses before any long term damage is done. At times I think it does take a strong person to cope with life in the West because everywhere you look, someone is telling you what you should have, where you should be, where you should live, where you should work, how you should look and who you should be with. It was never this bad in Kenya when I think back, no wonder so many people here crack up trying to be the Joneses.

In other news, anyone who works in an office building in the States is aware of the fact that the windows here are just for show and don't open at all. I understand about the higher floors but are they scared that someone on the ground floor will still try and toss themselves out of that window onto the curb? Because of that air conditioning is the sole form of climate control, so when the air con gets busted you are in trouble. Last week our thermostat was having issues so the office became rather warm, I didn't know that but when I began feeling hot flashes the first thing that came to mind was, "Damn, aren't I a bit young for male menopause?"

Anyway a new week is here and it's time to get back to the grind, just marvelous!


Girl next door said...

Retail therapy works, till you get the credit card bill=) I guess it's the need for instant gratification. And you're right about us being bombarded by images of what we should have or be. It's hard not to buy into it. It is a challenge to indulge in an activity that doesn't have risks.

The process of self-examination is useful in setting goals. Sometimes I think it would be simpler to be satisfied with less and just settle. But it's hard to shut out your internal drive. Hope your week goes well.

Anonymous said...

Self examination is important. At least in your case those periods 'do not stay long enough to cause lasting damage'.
LOL @ male menopause

Kafai. said...

For some reason, this post made me smile.

gishungwa said...

Self examination is inevitable especially if you have some goals and objectives. Still the value is in acknowledging that you have come from far and have even further to go.

LMAO @ male menopause.

Majonzi said...

Best to overthink, so that when you make a mistake you know exactly what hit you. One can never be too cautious. Lol, don't forget to live a little, live some!

Hee, I remember the single days when I worried sick about all the diseases one would get from a potential partner-- from STD's to other viral and bacterial infections (read Mono, quite common in college students).

Mwangi said...

I feel you, is all I can say, I feel you.My moments of introspection have always turned out well for me. Hope ur self-examination comes to a fruitful conclusion.

Lola Gets said...

Um, dear, just where do you think those 1 in 4 women is getting herpes from??

Thats right, MEN!


candybox said...

Didn't know men get menopausal hot flushes lol.

Anonymous said...

While in this self examination process ig oing on .. confirm to urself that u are a man!

Hmmm yeah I call it the swipe disease... Swipe the debit/credit card! n no its not that bad in Kenya but then again thats coz not everyone can just swipe ovyoovyo like that

Nakeel said...

Its always good to reflect about things. After self examination then it looks easy to go on.

Ati Male menopause that checks in at what age?